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"I had no idea how to make any fucking sense out of the whole thing," Gold says. "I was completely lost."
Then enrolled at Harvard, he began to feel out of place. To escape his studies — and the overwhelming media attention following the deaths — he'd steal moments to write songs at the piano. He began to realize that music was more than a hobby, it was a calling.
Not that there hadn't been signs before. An insomniac from an early age, Gold had long been imagining people singing to him in a state of lucid dreaming, including, once, Bruce Springsteen. After waking up, he realized the Boss had been performing a song Gold had written himself. "So I had to ask myself, why was I getting songs delivered to me in the middle of the night if it wasn't my duty to follow them?
"I must sound like a crazy person," he adds. "Look, I do have a very rational brain. I just get spiritual when it comes to music."
It gets crazier. On his last day at the toxic apartment, a single-engine small plane crashed one block from his building, killing its pilot and two passengers. The similarity to his mother's death proved too much; Gold knew something needed to change. He'd been living in substandard conditions because he'd refused to use his mom's insurance money. This, he says, had the effect of keeping him mired in the past rather than moving beyond it.
Nowadays, Gold exercises his creativity from a suave, art deco pad overlooking the Silver Lake reservoir. Songs From a Toxic Apartment has proved to be a cathartic work, and its "phase two" is letting him continue the healing process.
He doesn't expect this period to last forever, however. His follow-up work is written and ready to record. "Don't worry," he says with a laugh. "This album will be a lot less heavy."
Ethan is Gold. And I agree, this is a courageous interview. I love reading the truth. From your mom's friend in Santa Fe, Nan
Great Album! Alway's listen to it when i'm stressed out and it calms me. "Why don't you sleep" reminds me of the day's my dad used to play piano for me as a child. That's special!
The best music article I've read in ages. It takes bravery beyond cunning to be an artist of any sort. But to reveal it's scathed source for all to see is to truly love one's fans. Hearts on fire to Ethan Gold ... trialed over flames, turning darkness into light.