Pass Da Chutney

Related Content

• Alicia Keys - Staples Center - 3/12/13
  March 13, 2013
• American Idol Meets the Museum
  August 23, 2012
• MAKE US LAUGH, FUNNY GIRL! Maria Bamford
  November 10, 2011
• MARIA BAMFORD
  November 10, 2011
• Is Riff Raff Serious?
  May 24, 2012

More About

• T-Mobile Sidekick III
• BlackBerry Mobile Devices

It made a terrible sound, my Sidekick 2 striking the wall. I’d thrown it, on purpose, with angry intent. It never worked very well in my apartment, and on this day, my repeated attempts to call out received only a busy signal, a historically annoying tonal aggression made all the more annoying by the fact that there is no such thing as a busy phone anymore. And yet the vast computer system that controls T-Mobile’s satellites and relay towers and switching centers has been programmed to subject who knows how many million customers to that blaring vestige of analog telephony whenever its billion-dollar circuitry fails to place your call properly. WTF?!?!! Plus, it was really boiling that day, and maybe there was some other emotional stuff going on, and I’d locked myself out earlier, and, well, when the 20th anachronistic busy signal was blasted into my ear by my Sidekick 2, I wound up and threw the fucking thing.

It was a meltdown, one that was extraordinarily satisfying for somewhere around three seconds — about the same amount of time it seemed like a good idea to pour apple juice on my head as an attempt to cool off when I was too hot one summer. That was near the same age at which I last broke something on purpose, a sleek and beautiful model rocket whose parachute mysteriously stopped deploying. When my attempted fixes didn’t work, I decided no beauty was better than flawed beauty and set the whole thing on fire. Then I bought an even better one.

My Sidekick 2 was more than just a model rocket. I got it on a lark, but as soon as I fired up “the Kicker,” our identities were inextricably bound. I was the only one of my friends who had it. Everyone loved to marvel at the swiveling screen and satisfyingly tactile keyboard through which I was constantly mediating a stream of vital and meaningful information, such as the following text messages:

JS: Where u @? For old acquaintance be forgot . . .

Me: I’m on the can at theWeekly. 4th Floor — the nice bathroom. All alone.

JS: I’m @ Grove. Mad sidewalk bargainz.

Me: What did U do last nite?

JS: Kicked it wit the lady. You?

Me: WORK WORK WORK till late! Then I came home & caught tail end of AVP

JS: AVP?

Me: ALIEN VERSUS PREDATOR

JS: Right: Whoever wins — we lose

Me: You eat?

JS: Bout to fuck up some BABY FIELD GREENS Y’ALL!

Like many people, I have a conflicted relationship with my technology. The problem with new personal-communication tools is that more personal communication isn’t always a step forward. The Sidekick, and its corporate-oriented cousin, the BlackBerry, are supposed to make life easier by routing your manifold electronic conduits into a single device, which, if you think about it, really means that you are paying good money to carry all your problems with you at all times.

Yes, the Internet provides an endless information resource — which eventually sucks you into a black hole of procrastination. Instant messaging allows for frictionless textual contact between all the people of Earth, and yet is used almost exclusively to help fritter away lives with meaningless banter. Bluetooth headsets inaugurated the era of hands-free living while subjecting us to the visual nightmare of middle-aged men outfitting themselves as cyborgs for $39.99 at Best Buy. I used to look forward to the day when I would live on some Greek island, in need of no possessions except a tan tunic and the sentient computer that would live on my wrist, a random-access node integrating at will with the vast and powerful infosphere — until I realized I would use this technological nirvana to spend all my time watching home videos of infants farting baby powder and messaging other information priests about Alien Versus Predator.

And yet, I’d already started down that path. Whether I liked it or not, my Sidekick was my electronic representative out in the ether, always on call, heroically attempting to reduce the vast chaos of the world into some text and pictures on a 2.5-inch LCD display. We were symbiotically entwined in an ongoing effort to simplify things. A Sisyphean task, yes, but at least I faced it with a partner.

Until I killed it. It was with trembling hands that I picked up my poor, broken companion off the floor and confronted the reality of my own tragic rage. My little buddy looked so sad, his lifeless screen cracked and twisted, never to alert me to an upcoming event with a customized domo arigato ringtone ever again. The remorse was genuine. I felt like a parent might after being arrested for shaken-baby syndrome: I don’t know what happened — it just wouldn’t shut up. Had I been more inclined toward Shakespearean penance, I would have clawed my own eyes out.

All this was especially disappointing, since I’d been reading a book of Zen approaches to contemporary life that urges the reader to make a spiritual alliance with his or her technology. Among the recommendations: Bow to your computer, breathe deeply 10 times when turning it on, and contemplate the meaning of the ALT key. (“There are always alternatives, other options.”) Sounds silly, but I was kind of buying it. Don’t fight the machines, the book cautions. Make peace with them instead.